Numb is a good word. It’s been two and a half weeks since Ricky died, and I am embarking on the long business of wrapping up his life, wrapping up our life. If were able, I would take this slowly, but as it is, my lease ends on June 30, and there’s a lot of … Continue reading Grieving, Post-Quarantine
I found that non-stop stand-up comedy is therapeutic to the point of necessity. I did pretty nothing except one thing: I cooked in the kitchen again. I can meet my basic needs again. Now, I’m trying to go to bed at a decent hour so I can try to stop fearing sleeping at night. And … Continue reading Grieving in Quaratine, Day 11:
I am not crying all the time. I am not cycling through my emotions so rapidly. I am not as dysfunctional as I was a few days ago, but I am aware that I have anxiety over strange things. I know I don’t have to be vigilant all the time, so I’m making myself not … Continue reading Grieving in Quarantine: Day 10
So he’s not coming back. I understand this intellectually, as this is the longest we have ever been apart, and I have spent seven days in my apartment without seeing him, without hearing him, without sending him a text message from the bathroom and him getting annoyed about it. I am not asking him what … Continue reading Grieving in Quarantine: Day 7
This is Cohosh Man. It’s not a man, and it’s not made of cohosh. It’s a sculpture of sorts Ricky made with foam crack filler. The coffee and inhaler make it a still-life. In time, he would become increasingly more dependent on those inhalers. He gave this to me the day that I was flying … Continue reading Grieving in Quarantine: Day 4
And what did the exact conjunction of Jupiter and Pluto in Capricorn bring you ? My boyfriend of six years — the one I wrote about here - passed away in the wee hours of April 5, 2020. It was sudden. I don’t know if it was corona virus related, but it could have been, … Continue reading A Death in the Fugitive Umbrellas Family
Image by Harut Movsisyan from Pixabay So, I am essential, so I am working, albeit mostly from home. This means I don’t have a commute. Which means I have more time for things like astrology. I will post a new article soon. I swear. But this is also a great time for other work, like … Continue reading Quarantine Blues?
I’m trying to stay in good spirits by realizing that without a commute, I can do more creative things with my time outside of work. But even I’m starting to get lonely from being isolated. I’m coming up with a few creative things to do, maybe a podcast? Or maybe I need inspiration.
Happy Equinox Plague! Hiding, or breaking out? So I was wondering what the big Capricorn energy was going to bring, but I didn’t guess pandemic. Yet, with Saturn at the 29th degree of Capricorn, it held on desperately, and the evil witch cast her spell upon the world, and it was all sealed up until … Continue reading Corona Virus, Equinox: Happy Aries Season!
I'm here. I'm still working, still writing...just not posting right now. I'm using the Big Capricorn energy toward some other things, but I expect to be back soon. So... ...I apologize if I haven't answered your messages yet. By the way, if you're looking for a content writer, drop me a line.