If You’re 36 to 42, Don’t Give Up Now! You’re Too Stupid to Fail.

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The loss of a dream can be the birth of a new one.

I know that I have posted on this before here and here, but I want to add something hopeful to the mix.

If you’re about 36 to 42, you may be feeling a bit of despair right now, especially if you are still working toward unfulfilled dreams. Setbacks and obstacles may be in your way, or you may simply be thinking about how much time it has taken to get here and how much more time it will take to get where you want to be.

Or maybe you feel that you have nothing to hope for right now.

It’s okay. Right now, Saturn is transiting your natal Neptune, and one of issues that arises is denial of dreams. You may feel that life is going nowhere. You may also feel that whatever you strive to do simply dissolves, that your hard work seems to peter into nothing. You may question your competence. You may also be overcome with worry about things that are either inflated concerns or things that may not actually happen.

Now, this may actually be a time where the universe tells you to let go of an unfeasible dream. At this point in your life, you are now too old to become famous as a singer in a boy band, so if you have this dream, it is probably a good time to give it up. It may also be a good time for you to give up fantasies of being rich and famous if there is no reason for you to be rich or famous.

But Saturn and Neptune make strange alchemy, and despair is a realist’s position. It could be that you keep on, and perhaps make your dreams a reality because right now,  you are too stupid to fail. No, you’re not stupid, even if you actually feel stupid right now. This feeling tends to plague those born with a natal hard aspect between Saturn and Neptune. Okay, so you won’t be rich or famous simply by being you. Instead, focus on being successful at things you can actually do and produce. That’s what Saturn tells you to do. Neptune can inoculate it with a little imagination, because even a hard aspect is still an awakening of a natal planet.

Do you know anyone who is successful and doesn’t seem to deserve it? Have you ever worked for a Michael Scott, a boss who shouldn’t be boss? Can you think of anyone who is rich and famous but who doesn’t really have any talent? Yes, we can. Often, what they have that you don’t have is 1) grit, and 2) the stupidity to not realize that they’re incompetent or lacking.

Those who are incompetent tend to not realize that they’re incompetent, so they keep chugging along. Often, they’re genuinely surprised when they don’t do something well. It has been studied, and is known as the Dunning-Kruger effect. You can use this to your advantage.

Now, I don’t mean that you should half-ass things (as can happen when Neptune transits your natal Saturn), but that you should forget that you could fail at something. It is a given that whatever you do, you could fail. This is often scary enough to keep people from trying, but it is a reality that cannot be wished away, and right now, Saturn won’t let you do it.

If you forget that you can fail, you can fake your way into grit. This way, each failure is just a setback, a stepping stone, an option to try something different. Is that not fundamentally stupid? Yep. Can it work? Absolutely.

You are part of the generation of big dreams, with Neptune in Sagittarius, and Sagittarius is the sign of sheer dumb luck. Two hurdles to success is to convince yourself and to convince others. If you can convince others, you win. If you can convince yourself, you also win.

This transit can also be a moment that is telling you that in order to get what you want, you have to work. Work applied to inspiration cultivates talent into a skill that can be applied.

And know that if it is time to let go of a dream, it may be because it is time to make room for a new one. Saturn is a karmic planet, and when he comes around and rains on your parade, it is is because he’s trying to tell you that the parade is moving in the wrong direction.

 

 

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Saturn Square Neptune: An allegory

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One of the ways to look at the recent transit of Saturn in Sagittarius square Neptune in Pisces is through illustration.

Imagine a young person has dreams to move up in the world (Saturn) but is not socially privileged enough (Saturn in Sagittarius) to be in the worldly spheres in which going to a university and taking advantage of the privilege of social status helps. One of the things that is very difficult about being poor and disadvantaged is that support network, if there is one, doesn’t either know how to properly encourage the young person, or fears losing them to the world (Saturn in Sagittarius). This is one of the reasons a lot of young people don’t really have social mobility in America. They lack the culture and the support networks. Working class values don’t apply to the white collar world; it is not true that simple hard work for long enough brings success (Saturn). There must also be the glamour of success (Neptune), because desperation is a stench everyone can smell and no one likes. There is learning to play the game that poor people just don’t get a chance to try. There is a shared culture that the poor is shut out of; even if you make it through self-reliance (Saturn), you haven’t learn how and when to lean on the middle- and upper-classes for help, because you have never had that opportunity. You were probably taught NOT to lean on other people, to not bother your teachers or bosses.

One of the ironies of the middle- and upper-class is that these people aren’t really anymore sophisticated than the poor — and perhaps are even less so in some regards, because they haven’t had to learn to entertain themselves or appreciate all their cultural capital — but they have no need to feel self-conscious about it. There is a sense that they’re okay, and will be okay, no matter what they do or don’t do.

And always haunting you is your past; if you think that you aren’t worthy, will other people also think that you’re not worthy, too?

Poverty and lack of resources tends toward fatalism (Neptune in Pisces). There is helplessness. You better do whatever the boss says and eat his shit, or else you don’t have a job. This is how the world works; it is patently unfair, and there is nothing you can do about it (Neptune in Pisces). Shut up, do your job, go home. No one cares what you think, and you can’t change anything (Saturn in Sagittarius). You get a job to cover your bills. People treat you like shit. Too bad. You work hard for peanuts and you will not advance. This is your lot in life. Sure, there are opportunities, but not for you. Drink your booze and escape reality through entertainment (Neptune in Pisces).

It may be that one is raised in this type of environment in which do-what-I-say-and-don’t-question-me-because-I’m-the-boss is the rule of the home. Using your reasoning and critical thinking may have been punishable or seen as unwanted. Having an intellectual curiosity is a sure way to get yourself punished and ostracized. One may never get a chance to learn to effectively argue or debate when it is not allowed. One learns to follow orders. One learns to hide.

But what if you have a dream?

If you take that opportunity, you have a lot of work to do. You don’t have the luxury of having someone else pay your way through school. You may not be able to go study abroad or do fancy things that can help you get a better job. You have to earn your keep. You can’t afford to indulge in the culturally-enriching things richer students can. You can’t afford to spend money on tutors or supplemental materials. All you have is what is free, and that is time.

There is a loneliness there (Saturn) and a sense of being in the midst of something you can’t control (Neptune). You can’t go to the bars and spend your entire paycheck. You don’t have time for it, because you know that it is through your efforts in school that you will get a good job, not your connections, of which you have none. But herein lies the problem. You don’t have time to network. You don’t have time for mingling and schmoozing, and you can’t afford to go to the places that allow you do that. You have neither the time or the money. So, you work. It becomes that much harder to figure out an in to the world that you don’t have time to navigate.

You always have the option of running away (Neptune) and licking your wounds and saying that the world is unfair. Alternatively, you can stick with the dream and be the first person in your family to rise up and be a professional, even if you never rise to the level of success that you hope because you don’t have the same opportunities as kids who are already in a world of privilege. You may have to work a whole lot harder for less. You may, on the other hand, be able to provide your children with the social in’s that your current classmates take for granted.

And there is a silver lining. Since you have never had someone who can really help you in the face of hardship, when hardship arises, you weather the storm and do your best. You know that you won’t simply die if you get a bad grade. You also know how to work, and how to take care of yourself while working. You have learned to make your own way, and you have learned to walk the path alone. You have learned that being alone has it’s benefits and it’s drawbacks, but all along, you have stuck with the dream.

And eventually, that dream becomes a reality, because you have made your own way. You have cultivated your own talents. You are empathetic to people in need; and you have known hunger and hardship. You aren’t drawing on one or two experiences that others may write about in their college admissions applications. You’re relying on a lifetime of pushing a boulder uphill.

And what did that get you? A very, very strong back. You had to make your own way. You dreamed it (Neptune), you patiently worked through it (Saturn) and now the vision you wanted to produce (Saturn in Sagittarius) is aligned with the dream you had (Neptune in Pisces) in which you really convinced yourself that achieving the dream was possible.

Ah, but what if you crapped out? At least you don’t have loans to pay back, or long hours to work. But you can always imagine what might have been (Neptune) in regret (Saturn) if you had just chosen to stick with it. Hardship overcome is a memory.

Saturn Square Neptune: Naked Collective Reality vs. Wanton Dreaming

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As of the attacks on Paris yesterday, at least 180 Parisians are dead. This was from a series of coordinated terrorist attacks. The victims were Parisians, regular people doing regular things.

Astrologically, we could say that this is a very, very, very bad manifestation of Neptune square Saturn, especially with Mars conjuncting the north node. This is one of the very worst things that can happen when people take to action (Mars conjuncting the north node) their false dreams of utopia to make it real for everyone else (Neptune in Pisces square Saturn in Sagittarius).